It is kind of gross the story told by pagans of how earth becomes impregnated by her dead husband, using a fake penis (phallus),  and then giving birth to him again as her own son. And the story repeats again, in cycles. The son becomes the lover or the husband, the husband dies or gets killed by a rival, then the devoted wife finds his parts, except for one, but that doesn’t matter because she can use the fake one instead and vuala she becomes pregnant and gives birth to him again. Earth you sexy bitch, all you do is give birth for your own pleasure? But, this story, as preposterous and unbelievable as it may sound, keeps repeating in almost every religion, with some changes and twists of course. People went to such great trouble to not only tell the story but to make it immortal by playing it out in rituals, festivals, and even carving the story on the walls of pyramids, or whenever they could get their hands on. So, if this story is such unbelievable that one may think it is a made up story then why such trouble, why such insistence on telling it, and making sure that the story passes on from one generation to another in one form or the other?

I would not have bothered myself with such stories before, but things happen for a reason and as I let myself to be directed and guided by certain energy, I started to notice that certain information comes to me, and becomes available to me when I start becoming curious about it. The synchronicity and consistency of things happening this way is so great in my life, that anyone capable of reasoning would freak out at this point by thinking “either I am God and I am making things happening as I think of them, or I think of them as someone plays me and makes me believe I am thinking these things on my own.” Yes, anyone will freak out. First of all, if you think you are God then you accept the responsibility of everything happening in the world today. You are responsible of creating mankind in such a way that man kills man for reasons of survival or greed. That’s not good at all. On the other hand, if you accept that such synchronicity is too good to be true, then you must be played by someone or something, then this is not good either because the illusion is so great that you start doubting and finally questioning, “Do we have any free will at all, or are we always being played to believe we do?” This is the reason that even though I have come to certain conclusions about five or six years ago, and even though I tempted to share this knowledge that came from some observations I made and from discovering a consistency on the logic of things happening and existing, I at some point, withdrew back to my cave and started questioning not only my sanity but also the purpose of all the effort I was putting into letting the “truth” out. I questioned, what is the truth that I was trying to get across to others?

The truth that I wanted to unfold was a combination of science and spirituality. I say spirituality because my theory of Antimatter has very much to do with the realm of metaphysics, the physics beyond the physical plane, that of the spirit. But what do I know about spirit planes that decided to take such a great initiative and put my vulnerable self out there to become a target of insults, embarrassments, ridicules of others, and then pay the consequences for these actions? To tell the truth, I do not know? I felt pretty much very euphoric at that time and believed that I was doing the right thing. I believed that because things made sense to me and showed that spiritual realm, even though invisible as it has to do with mind and thoughts, it is in fact tangible because of the laws that apply in that realm, which are the same laws that apply in the physical realm too. Things made sense to me from a scientific point of view, and I started to notice more things, things that others could not at that time. I started to put the pieces together and was surprised to find out how these pieces fit into one another like perfect gloves. I started to realize that such stories like the one of Earth impregnating herself and giving birth to her belated lover was not so mystical, or gross, or unbelievable anymore. I became so euphoric after discovering these links that I went to a great length to share it with others in the most embarrassing ways, believing that in the end it will be worth the effort.

I knocked on every door, the door of science, religion, and even kings and politicians. I tried my best, my foolish stupid best who believed that could change things and make people realize that there is no need to fight among one another about whose religion was best, or who was right or wrong about God, and life, and power, and all that. Believe it or not I went to different religious sects too, hoping someone would read my book and realize that mysticism is mysticism for as long as it is not seen under the light of science and formulas that could easily apply in the realm of thoughts. I went to the Cabala group in Toronto believe it or not, and asked those men to look at my book and see what they could make of it. They very politely said they would, and invited me to attend one of their meetings. I did, I attended the meeting, and I received other invitations from them, until I realized they were trying to recruit me and make me believe in their religion, while my intention was to change their point of view. Funny eh? So they called again and told me that I had forgotten my book with them, and if I wanted to get the book back. I answered that I did not need the book back, I had other copies of it, but if they could not find anything useful from that book they could throw it in the garbage, I told them. I had no need for that. They assured me that they would not throw my book in the garbage, but I could at any time go back and get it. Funny, funny. I wanted straight answers, you’re either with me and want to discuss the matters I raise, or you are not. I did not want to waste any more time with people trying to convince me that their religion was right or better than others. I had already made up my mind. I belong to no religion, yet I believe that there is destiny, as energy field, in the form of a script that plays out and no one can escape from it. Therefore, I realized that what religions are doing with their teachings and manipulations are only delaying the fulfillment of destiny. Why would that be? I realized that this may be due to the partial knowledge. And partial knowledge comes from missing clues, and missing clues come from either missing information due to limited observation and facts or due to misunderstandings.

I fell flat on my face, after every attempt I made from 2011 to 2014 to spread the word and publish this knowledge, so that people would understand that these pieces of information are all over the place, and each group is only holding parts of the truth not the whole truths. I fell flat on my face and got hurt badly, physically and emotionally, just like the time I walked for the first time in my life. That day was a memorable day, because my dad being obsessed with cameras conveniently had the camera with him that day when I decided to let go of my parents’ hands and started not just walking but running. My dad was impressed and he snapped a picture of me marching so confidently that very first time I walked without my parents’ support, just seconds before I became so euphoric and decided to run instead, which of course ended up with my face flat on the asphalt of the boulevard. I got hurt badly back then too, and as my mother tells me the story, I became really afraid to try walking again on my own, very afraid. And that became the story of my life that repeats in almost everything I do. Everything I do, I do it twice. The first time, I feel euphoric and I put all my energy to it; I enjoy the adrenaline rush and then I fall. I get hurt and decide not to do that again, but circumstances push me to the point that I must try again, just so I do not live with the guilt on my shoulders. And here we are again. I decided that this time instead of meeting people and trying to tell them about my book and my ideas, I decided to use my blog and share some of these ideas here. And yes, I do this all for free, because I feel no enthusiasm anymore, but more like an obligation I have toward that access I was given to such great knowledge. But this knowledge is so great that I came to realize that unless someone is truly motivated to find the truth behind the mystery of life, reality and existence, then there is no point for someone to grab my book and read it. Because life is busy and fast pace, people often limit their curiosity to little things that do not take much time and do not require much thinking.

So there we go again, I share such knowledge in little bits of pieces in my blog and here and there I get a comment or two, and some likes but never hoped that it may get any further than that. I never looked and will never look for power or awards by doing this. Indeed, I gave these knowledge for free to people by giving my books for peanuts or even free in many cases. Nothing happened, and maybe nothing will happen again, but I am doing my best to share what I think I came to know in very strange circumstances, as if a lightning bolt just shot me in the head and made me smart enough to see the links between all things on earth. And not just the stories told on earth through religions and beliefs, but I also became aware of the connections between earth and its people and the whole universe. I know too much to declare, and that is why I am taking it easy. You read the story here which I have broken in millions of small pieces to make sure that readers realize that my intention is not to take any sides or to approve or disapprove anything at all. My intention is to ask questions and cast doubts so that people may start thinking on their own about what they know or believe to be true. I can show my interpretation of things and my reader can decide whether it makes any sense to him or her, or it is not their cup of tea. In many cases though, as I discovered the application of the Law of Resistance, a law that parallels the Law of Ohm in electricity, for the knowledge to be truly understood some resistance is necessary. This resistance can lead to debates and arguments, and if we are not aware of this law and its applications and the applications of other laws of metaphysics, then we do what we always do, we fight to be right and prove to others that we are right. It is how the wars start and how things accelerate from trying to get someone’s attention, to then raising your voice to prove your point and then becoming physical to the point that someone may get hurt, just to prove their point. And all this mass and fuss occurs because we are not aware of the applications of the law of resistance which then triggers the application of the law of Giving and Receiving, hence the fight, which then triggers other laws of living, all in a sequence. So, I do accept it, and I am well aware that readers may not always accept everything I share here, and that is why my intention is to raise questions more than to give information. However, sometimes it is impossible to do so, for the lack of time. And in those cases it may seem as I am shoveling information down someone’s throat. I apologize in advance for that, and if you feel like chocking, then spit it out immediately. This information may be a big chunk for you, so take it easy bro. Hence, no need to leave hatred comments on my blog, because even though, those comments may upset me very much, as I am indeed very emotional person, I do feel the pain and hurt not only of myself, but also of those around me, I also know that this information is not meant to appeal to everyone. So chill.

And now, after such a long preparation (now you can see my point as why I lost my enthusiasm on sharing this knowledge) I will share with you why I think the story of Earth giving birth to its own lover could indeed be true. If you believe in reincarnation, (I explain this process in my book too, and it is quite scientific) a human soul, or human consciousness as we call it nowadays, which consists of magnetic energy basically, would not get lost after death. This energy would not dissolve in space or become zero at any point after death, because based on the laws of physics, the energy never disappears to nothing or is created from nothing. Therefore, if we would accept that after death the human soul continues to exist, then this soul made of this antimatter (not made of matter, explained this in my previous posts) and that possesses some energy, will be attracted to matter, its opposite. And this way a new conscious being comes to life. The question is, when does this soul or this consciousness enters the human body? Is it at the conception, or is it at the moment of birth? Based on some observations and some calculations and by following a line of logic, I concluded that even though a potential human is conceived, this fetus cannot be human until the fetus is able to think and reason. But when does a fetus starts thinking? How can we decide about this timing? Again this timing needs time to explain. So I would cut the chase and share here that I came to the conclusion that since the fetus of the potential human does not show much of the functioning during the first trimester other than that of a vegetable and that of a monkey later in the first trimester, then the human soul, the reasoning is not present until after 16 to 18 weeks of pregnancy. It is during this period that a human fetus is not only fully developed but it also shows signs of thinking, sleeping, recognizing familiar voices while spoken to, and even enjoying the music. Hence, we can say that after that point if the fetus survives, then this is a human.

And as I came to this conclusion years ago, and by some calculations I managed to surprise myself, and that is why I was not surprised years later by hearing such kind of stories of a wife giving birth to her husband. Indeed, it may happen. I cannot help it but question, could the story of Eve and the serpent in the Garden of Eden be the reflection of this? Could it be that Ra, which somehow, as I concluded from all the clues that I put together from different stories and which I shared quite briefly in my previous post, may indeed be the hacker himself? If so, why would Ra be motivated to do such thing? To answer this question I would refer to more stories, that even though they seem to contradict one another, and even eliminate the conclusions one would withdraw from one story or the other, I was able to see these stories under a different light and I was indeed glad that I came across such stories, even though they seem unbelievable. Such stories share that the Ra who created humans is a different Ra from what is known to be the god Ra? And how can this be?

Well, let’s suppose for a moment that in the Garden of Eden, there was an Adam and Eve, and they were created and kept in this protected environment for good reasons, to see how they can function before they are let to live on their own and multiply. Now, this Ra as kind of the headmaster of those in charge of this experiment let’s say, but not the one involved in the experiment, hence not quite knowledge of what may come next or what the consequences of his actions would be, he may have indeed tempted Eve to have sex with her companion, Adam. One must ask, why would such action be beneficial to Ra or that particular Ra? It would have been beneficial only if this particular Ra either knew that he was dying or wanted to die and hide among the humans after being born as a human, for whatever reasons that may have been. In such case then , Ra must have known that after the conception a soul would enter the fetus, but not right at the moment of conception, but months later, giving Ra time to complete his plan. Hence, the stories that say that Ra is not the same Ra, or that say god died and god was born again, and all the stories that kill the man somehow, while the female partner weeps and weeps and weeps, but in the end she finds the solution and uses the sperm from her lover, perhaps using the invitro method (hence the fake penis) she becomes impregnated and gives birth to her beloved lover, may all be true. I still find this story grossum though, because as I loved someone as a lover, how can I love him as my child? I would not be capable of loving this child, but I would if what I was doing was a duty, a chore, a task to complete, a test of how these beings would function. Or, I would love the child as my own, I would have loved, protected, and nourished the child with mother’s love if I had no idea who this child was and what soul was he carrying on. I would also love this child if I knew that this may have been some sort of psychopath who love-hated me and needed a rebirth and new environment to see how such soul would function if raised by the right mother in the right conditions.

It is strange that if you read these ancient stories you find out that it was not surprising at all to people of that time to be thinking in such unbelievable ways. So what was going on back then? Was earth some kind of a lab? Was human created by those who considered themselves gods? If so, why, and do we have a purpose, a destiny to follow? Or are we just clones to those who created us, hence we have no real purpose and as such we must be disposable or even worse, destined to be annihilated?  Could this be the reason Ra or someone else equally in charge for such creation may have decided to die and to be born again as a human so that such experiment would not be destroyed? By flood? Could someone among those who created humans or were amazed by such creation wanted the humans to live and not be disposed as the order may have been at that time? Could this someone else be another being indeed that may have liked what he had seen and wanted to use the human species and DNA to help their own dying species? Did Earth at some point became a lab for creating new humans, or did it became a rehabilitation place for many different alien races? Oh this is a huge speculation, but do not worry, I will discuss this in details on my next post.

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